My Manifesto: The Incoherent Ramblings of a Madman

Have you ever had one of those weeks when things just don't seem worth it anymore? A mid life crisis? I'm too young for that - or am I?. Back in the day people would have one job almost their entire lives - the midlife crisis would happen towards the end of it. We have been brainwashed into thinking we will have to retrain entirely for not only multiple jobs - but at least three different careers during our lifetime. Am I going through the three year crisis? Will I go through this crisis every three years?

In one-week my boss has gone from:
Boss: "Please see email from (insert client name) below.
It's so nice to get an unsolicited compliment like this that shows you are not only doing a good job at (insert place), but also enhancing our company's reputation.
I suspect that I don't often enough take the time to express my appreciation to you - and this is just due to us all being busy. But I do appreciate the work you are doing, the way you are doing it and the effort you put into helping our company grow and prosper."

Client: "On another note, I don't know if I have mentioned this before. From my dealings with Adam, he has demonstrated a very professional & competent approach to the projects he is working on. I have been impressed, he would be a good assett to your organisation."

to this:

Boss: "I noticed a problem with your profit sharing form"
Me: "It is good to see you're looking out for me"
Boss: "I always have to check over your work - I never check over anybody elses"
Me: *smiling from ear-to-ear uncontrollably while thinking to myself: "you sign off every plan saying you've checked over it - but knowing that you haven't explains why I have to check over their plans with a fine toothed comb in the position that I am in at the (insert client here) before handing them over to my direct superior there"*
nb: the fault was in an invoice that was never sent because it wasn't entered into my records as my boss said he would do it for me because I was not in the office that day.

My boss thinks I'm a trouble maker because I talk about things like: laws, legal obligations, standards, codes of practice, recommended codes of practice, guidelines, best management practice, acts of parliment, quality assurance, occupational health and safety, regulations, et. Al. The trouble is is that it is these things that the clients like to hear. I just hope my boss realises this before it is too late.

I want to become CPENG. I want to do more management practice and more design practice to satisfy myself I am ready. I want to do more study. I want to do some environmental study, some management study, and some traffic engineering study. I want to do some drainage study. I want to do some more bridge designing.

This is going to be a busy year for me - this year may make or break me. Damn three year crisis to hell.