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Sunday, July 11, 2004
It seems I have been psycho-analysed and caught out. Even on here I still have a shield up, a wall around me. The trouble is it is a difficult thing to do to have a guard up for so long and let it down. Sometimes I wonder why I have a guard up - othertimes I wonder how I could not have one. I try to put as much of myself into these writings as I can, at times, I even let my guard down. I guess as my life and this site unravels the mysteries within the vast emptiness that is my head more and more of me will show - or less and less; either way I hope it works out ok for me. Do you have to take this "journey of self discovery" with me? Fuck no. You do whatever the hell you want to do. Read. Don't read. Read often. Read occasionally. Give feedback. Don't give feedback. The choice is yours. It doesn't worry me either way.
Where will my life take me? Only time can tell - but right now I feel crowded. I feel rushed. I feel an urgency within me to do something other than what I am doing right now. I gave myself three (3) years in this godforsaken cest pool of get-rich-quicker scheisters and retirees. Now I wonder if I will ever escape - and in the back of my mind is the doubt that keeps me here - what if I really can't escape? What if I escape into the same situation? Same shit, different town, different day, same shit. I find that the more I travel I realise fundamentally we are not only just the same but we even have the exact same thing in every town replicated over and over and over again. You go down the main street of any village almost anywhere and you see the same thing.
Will love set me free?
Where will my life take me? Only time can tell - but right now I feel crowded. I feel rushed. I feel an urgency within me to do something other than what I am doing right now. I gave myself three (3) years in this godforsaken cest pool of get-rich-quicker scheisters and retirees. Now I wonder if I will ever escape - and in the back of my mind is the doubt that keeps me here - what if I really can't escape? What if I escape into the same situation? Same shit, different town, different day, same shit. I find that the more I travel I realise fundamentally we are not only just the same but we even have the exact same thing in every town replicated over and over and over again. You go down the main street of any village almost anywhere and you see the same thing.
Will love set me free?
Comments:
Your question is very well directed. I noticed that it is not 'Can love set me free?', because it of course can. Your question of 'Will love set me free?' shows that you realise this. It also points to your answer. The only person who can determine IF love will set you free is yourself. You are the only one in charge of the wall you have around you, and the only one who can let people in and out. So if love is going to save you, it will only be if you want it to, or let it. I think if you do let it, there is no doubt in my mind, for whatever my idea is worth, that love will set you free. After all, that is half the appealing of loving you... to try and let you bloom to be the best person you can be, with the life focus that allows you to look above the slavery of the town you are in, or the job you have, and to find the place within yourself, and within your love, that you own, and that you can find comfort in.
This all sounds a bit waffly, but that is what I believe. It is up to you. If you take the chance with it I have no doubt that you will be freer than you can imagine right now.
This all sounds a bit waffly, but that is what I believe. It is up to you. If you take the chance with it I have no doubt that you will be freer than you can imagine right now.
no, love wont set you free. well, not the type of love one marries for. very naive.... and somewhat... manipulative................
there are only two things that will set you free -
1. the realisation that our faults are what makes us human - at all levels - personal, those snobby cliches in Port, even the human civilisation as a whole.
and love the human race, including yourself, with all its/your faults. it truly is an amazing thing, as corny as that sounds.
in that respect, no fault is a bad thing, though individual occurances may be appauling and avoidable.
its just human nature im afraid. lust, love, walls.. wars.. jealousy, betrayal. its what we are and theres no escaping it - the inablilty to be able to accept this fact, hence, the desire to be continuously deep and philosopical doesnt do a damn thing. in the end, we are what we are.
Adam, you worry far too much. its a good thing to judge, be critical, analyse etc... we need that and we can learn and teach from it, but dont let it run your life.
2. the other thing that will set you free is honesty. honesty to others, and most importantly, yourself. and you know as well as i know, you werent 'caught out'.
did you really think you could be as open as you might want to be on this site? your friends read it, your girlfriend reads it. of course theres going to be a wall, and a rather large one.
if you love, then love with everything you have. if you dont, then dont kid yourself. be honest to yourself, and to others. you would be suprised how free you feel when you stop lying to yourself or to others. you wont feel as trapped, and you wont be taking others along for a ride. i think sometimes you have created a lot of the traps you are in by yourself.
This is my biggest problem with you. you have a problem being honest to yourself (hence others)... and you have a problem with confrontation. and no, im not talking about what you probably think i am talking about.
If you feel trapped, by anything, only you have the power to get yourself out of it.
and remember - yes, you are right.... different towns, same shit. moving town, even finding love, is a short distraction, until the same old shit starts over again. its not the town that is the problem... the problem is that we are human.... so accept it and thou shalt be free!!!!
(and if you know me at all, youll know that when i talk about acceptance, im NOT talking about appeasement)
muahahaha.
p.s. all the caramel slice is gone :P
there are only two things that will set you free -
1. the realisation that our faults are what makes us human - at all levels - personal, those snobby cliches in Port, even the human civilisation as a whole.
and love the human race, including yourself, with all its/your faults. it truly is an amazing thing, as corny as that sounds.
in that respect, no fault is a bad thing, though individual occurances may be appauling and avoidable.
its just human nature im afraid. lust, love, walls.. wars.. jealousy, betrayal. its what we are and theres no escaping it - the inablilty to be able to accept this fact, hence, the desire to be continuously deep and philosopical doesnt do a damn thing. in the end, we are what we are.
Adam, you worry far too much. its a good thing to judge, be critical, analyse etc... we need that and we can learn and teach from it, but dont let it run your life.
2. the other thing that will set you free is honesty. honesty to others, and most importantly, yourself. and you know as well as i know, you werent 'caught out'.
did you really think you could be as open as you might want to be on this site? your friends read it, your girlfriend reads it. of course theres going to be a wall, and a rather large one.
if you love, then love with everything you have. if you dont, then dont kid yourself. be honest to yourself, and to others. you would be suprised how free you feel when you stop lying to yourself or to others. you wont feel as trapped, and you wont be taking others along for a ride. i think sometimes you have created a lot of the traps you are in by yourself.
This is my biggest problem with you. you have a problem being honest to yourself (hence others)... and you have a problem with confrontation. and no, im not talking about what you probably think i am talking about.
If you feel trapped, by anything, only you have the power to get yourself out of it.
and remember - yes, you are right.... different towns, same shit. moving town, even finding love, is a short distraction, until the same old shit starts over again. its not the town that is the problem... the problem is that we are human.... so accept it and thou shalt be free!!!!
(and if you know me at all, youll know that when i talk about acceptance, im NOT talking about appeasement)
muahahaha.
p.s. all the caramel slice is gone :P
I agree in part. The type of love one marries for is not freedom but entrapment fused with companionship. However, unconditional love is another thing altogether.
I do not really love the human race. I think it is an amazing thing that we have managed to surpass any race before us, but at the same time, the cost that comes from this may well prove to be dire for us.
I agree again, no fault is a bad one, just that some faults you choose not to be around and others you do. That's what makes people hang around with each other for whatever reason, the fact that they can put up with the faults of those htey are hanging around.
We are what we are. The problem is I find it so hard to accept. On the surface we're born into this world to reproduce so the human race can keep on keeping on. The more you look into it - the more you realise that there is no other purpose in life than life it's self. That does sadden me because I feel as though I've finished the search already - and I don't want to finish the search because hte search is what I live for. The answer is incidental - the search is the fun part.
I was never caught out - I know - I've merely had it pointed out in person which means so much more than online. There is no honesty. There is no truth. There are no lies. There are various shades of all of the aforementioned. The truth depends on the eye of the viewer. I don't want to stop lying to myself. The "truth" is to hard to accept.
Everything is a short distraction - how do I give it meaning? Why can't life be more like a movie where everything has meaning? There is no chance, coincidence - everything is as it is because it is meant to be as it is, however, life is a different matter altogether.
p.s. you always eat all the caramel slice damn you!
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I do not really love the human race. I think it is an amazing thing that we have managed to surpass any race before us, but at the same time, the cost that comes from this may well prove to be dire for us.
I agree again, no fault is a bad one, just that some faults you choose not to be around and others you do. That's what makes people hang around with each other for whatever reason, the fact that they can put up with the faults of those htey are hanging around.
We are what we are. The problem is I find it so hard to accept. On the surface we're born into this world to reproduce so the human race can keep on keeping on. The more you look into it - the more you realise that there is no other purpose in life than life it's self. That does sadden me because I feel as though I've finished the search already - and I don't want to finish the search because hte search is what I live for. The answer is incidental - the search is the fun part.
I was never caught out - I know - I've merely had it pointed out in person which means so much more than online. There is no honesty. There is no truth. There are no lies. There are various shades of all of the aforementioned. The truth depends on the eye of the viewer. I don't want to stop lying to myself. The "truth" is to hard to accept.
Everything is a short distraction - how do I give it meaning? Why can't life be more like a movie where everything has meaning? There is no chance, coincidence - everything is as it is because it is meant to be as it is, however, life is a different matter altogether.
p.s. you always eat all the caramel slice damn you!
