My Manifesto: The Incoherent Ramblings of a Madman

There are some things in life we have no control over. What time the sun sets. What time the sun rises. The seasons. When our time is up. I do not know how I will die. I do not know when I will die. However, there is one thing that is for certain - I do not want to die slowly. It can be said that I am dying slowly now; every day as I grow older I near closer to Deaths' door - but that is beside whatever point it is I am trying to make.

I do not want to get alzheimers disease. I do not want to get motor nuerone disease. I do not want to get cancer. If I get any type of illness which cripples me - I want to be euthanased.

My grandmother had two (2) husbands die. She had met a friend several years afterwards. Her friend found out he had cancer. To stop her from going through the pain of losing another loved one he turned her away from him. He died almost alone three (3) years later. That is one of the most noble acts I had heard at the time. It is something I wish I had the courage to do. It is something I want to do but at the same time I wish to die knowing the people around me love me.

I do not know what I want in death - but I can say this for certain - in death I do not want to upset anyone, I do not want any attention drawn to me, I would rather just fade away back into this god forsaken earth from which I have come.