My Manifesto: The Incoherent Ramblings of a Madman

My mother bought me a present for my birthday that was going to be a surprise -- to her credit she knew me well enough to buy me a book I would have loved to get had I not already bought it myself two weeks previously -- to my discredit she paid 1/4 what I paid for it -- I was most upset. Also in the tangled mix was my grandmother -- she also was going to buy me the same book, however, she decided it was too expensive. It is always good when family surprise me. Sometimes when I think they barely know me, they out do themselves, they really do.

The car shopping proved a huge success -- I've got myself a 2002 model corolla hatchback, 43,000 km's for 19,990 which is pretty good value compared to some of the cars I looked at. The only problem is it has no CD player. On the upside, I managed to get $5500 for my old car, which stalls so often it is a death trap that is unregisterable and many a day has had me in a situation I would not want to ever be in again.

I've been as paranoid as all-hell driving my old car around. I take it down tomorrow night to newcastle to bid it fare well, and to pick up the new car. I'm a bit sad to see it go. It's been everywhere with me for the past few years. I've been: 4wding; through floods; droughts; to Adelaide; Brisbane; Sydney; Melbourne; the Great Ocean Road; on rally tracks, etc, etc -- not too bad for a little beep-beep barina. It still looks a nice car. It has alloy wheels, a sunroof, and a thermometer -- I'm going to miss my sunroof and thermometer.

I wonder what new adventures the corolla and I will embark on? I wonder if I can manage to afford to pay the car payments without digging into my savings/investments? That will be the challenge. I do not want to dip into the savings accounts at all. Thus far I have managed not to. However, I have $52 to last me 2 weeks. I still need to pay $600 for a change over fee, and I have to pay extra money on the insurance to cover my car. I have no food in the house. I will either be credit carding away -- or dipping into the savings already -- I didn't want to get off onto the wrong foot, but I already am backwards peddling trying to save myself and it has only just begun.

Work wasn't the best of days -- I found myself sitting there wondering exactly what I am meant to be doing. My boss insists I contour something, that to me, seems a complete waste of time, energy, and resources. He is on one of his "time is money" things again, and everytime he gets on one of them he makes me sit there and do stupid things wasting whole days for no good reason. It doesn't make any sense! Each lecture he gives me on wasting time --wastes more time. Each lecture he gives me on wasting time is followed by making me do something that is irrelevant. I was ready to just walk out today -- what would I do if I walked out? get another job working for another company probably doing the same shit I am doing now.

In the end nothing really matters.